My computer is finally working again and I cannot honestly express how excited I am to not have to go out to the cold dirty office where my dad's computer is to check my email, answer formspring questions, etc. I'm having wayyyyyyy to much fun with this, I won't lie.
ANYWAY..the past few days have been..interesting..to say the least. I realized fairly recently that my boobs have been getting better, my boyfriend made a point to ask before anything else if I'm pregnant, which is DEFINITELY not the case. I weighed myself and realized that I've gained about 10 pounds in the past few weeks and thought that doesn't seem like much to a lot of people, I was absolutely mortified. Devin came over a few nights ago and I made him dinner. He only ate a tiny bit of his serving and I was starving, so I ended up eating both our plates of food. We were sitting on the couch and he just looks at me and goes "You're tummy looks very full." I know now as I did then, that he meant nothing by it, but it still stung. I don't want to get back to the weight I was when I was a junior in high school, at the height of absolutely HATING anything and everything about myself. I'm only at 135 right now, but with my eating habits I'll be back at 155 in no time and I really DO NOT want that to happen. SO, as soon as the weather starts to get nicer, I'll be out and about, taking long walks all over town EVERY DAY, or going to Sami's house and riding her stationary bike for an hour and hopefully see improvement. I'm going to work on slowly weeding all this junk out of my diet and start eating better.
I'm gonna need a walking buddy, for the days I don't feel like walking solo. Any takers?
okay so, be smart, be silly, start exercising, walk, hike, bike, dance with your friends, get out and do something, pass up the giant slab of cake for something a little less fattening, like watermelon or all natural fruit popsickles. Tell someone what your plan is so they can help you stick with it. Oh and kiss someone, tell them you love them and that you'll never let them go.
happy tuesday!
xoxo.
sophie out.
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Coming from someone who's 170lbs, having weight issues and saying things about how 155 is such a horrendous weight and is just the most undesirable thing doesn't just damage your own self esteem, but it perpetuates the very stereotype and social pressure that has convinced you that 155 is a bad thing to weigh in the first place. It has taken me most of my life to come to terms with the fact that I am not fat at 170 wearing a size 12/14 and it is people like you making comments like that in ADDITION to ads, etc. that made it really difficult.
ReplyDeleteYou have roughly 70-80 years on this planet, would you rather spend it counting calories, standing on scales and putting unnecessary pressure on yourself to fit an ideal, or eating food you like and want, doing what makes you feel good and knowing that your weight is a number?
I'd like to have my cake and eat it too, not stare at it longingly while I munch on a carrot stick and hope one day I'll be the most drop dead gorgeous size 2 this world has ever seen.
I didn't mean to offend. These are just my personal views focused 100% on myself and no one else. Women and men can be beautiful at nearly any weight or body shape, for me personally though, I feel that 120-125 is my ideal weight range so that my hips and thighs are not as disproportional to my very very small upper body. Sorry if I rubbed you the wrong way, but this is MY blog for me to rant, rave, whatever I want. If you don't like that, don't read this.
ReplyDeleteHey Sophie! I'd love to be your walking partner. I know you haven't been over to my new place yet, but it's up by the graveyard and it's really amazing walking territory... and I could even walk down from my house to meet up with you at yours, and vice versa.
ReplyDeleteI completely understand where you're coming from with the weight thing, even though I'm working on doing the opposite - and keeping weight on rather than taking it off (when I start relaxing, I lose pounds quicker than I can blink). There's nothing wrong with finding your ideal weight range (something that allows you to feel comfortable about yourself AND is healthy) and sticking to it. I think that's strong and the right thing to do. Especially for you, specifically.
I don't think you were referring to other people's bodies...and everyone is different. My ideal goal weight for myself isn't 120, but I don't have the same body type that you do. If you find 155 to be too high for you, and you're not restricting your food intake or starving yourself or purging, then that's fine. 155 is too high and you're within your rights to think so.
I think what I'm trying to get at is that you weren't trying to insult Lucy be insinuating that no one in the world can be 155 or higher. That it's a bad weight. I think you were being very personal and implying that it made you uncomfortable for your own body. That's one thing. Every one else's bodies is something else entirely.
It sounds like you're just talking about doing a lot of healthy things for your body: get more exercise, eat less junk food, more fruits and vegetables. Sounds like great things to be doing, no matter what you weigh! Wispra and I will go for a walk with you anytime.
ReplyDelete-Christopher
HECK YES.
ReplyDeletei am way down with that plan :)
thanks guys