I REALLY don't. If what I say on this blog bothers you, don't read it, okay? I won't be offended, I won't have a problem with this. It's not a PRIVATE journal, it's just for me to rant about what I want, what makes me insecure, what I want to change, what I want to improve on and if you're not okay with it being public you can just get over it. I have it open so people can read it if they want to, and if there are things I don't want just any ol' person to see, they won't be posted here. I feel that some of my blogs have important messages to pass on and yeah, some are very honest about how I feel about my weight, and if that hurts anyone's self-esteem, I wholeheartedly apologize. It was for me to get something that's been bothering me off my chest, not to hurt anybody.
I want to be able to use this blog to talk whenever I want about any and all topics. Once again, if you disagree with my POV on a certain subject, you are welcome to voice it. Saying that I'm hurting people by saying what I say, or discussing the things I talk about is honestly just uncool. You're happy with the way you are or the way you see certain things, GREAT. Not that many people read my blog anyway, but find someone who is really hurt to the extent where they start questioning themselves, then come talk to me.
Sorry to sound like a bitch, but this is a place where I'm willing to be 100% brutally honest. If you can't deal, get lost.
xoxo.
sophie out.
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You want me to find someone who was really hurt by comments like yours and those of others like you?
ReplyDeleteME!
That was the whole point. Whether it's a good thing or not, whether it is caring about what other people think and say or not, how do you think it makes people who are heavier than you feel when you say that being 155 is TOO FAT.
It hurts. If 155 is too fat, then 170 is just uncalled for. If you stood on a scale and saw the number I see, you would be mortified and that hurts. That makes me feel bad about myself, if even just a small fraction of how bad it used to make me feel.
I apologize if I seemed out of line and I know I have a tendency to sound much meaner than I actually intend to be.
My main point was just trying to explain that the social standard of weight and even the idea that each person has an "ideal" weight are constructs and when you buy into them, not only are you doomed to feel bad about yourself, but you're perpetuating social constructs that make people like you and me and anyone else who isn't "ideal" feel like they have to count calories and lose weight to fit some arbitrary standard.
LUCY, JESUS. the thing you don't get is that this is about MY feelings about MY body. Other people may look better curvier, with more meat on their bones. I just feel that I, ME, not YOU, would not look like myself. I wouldn't be me anymore. It has nothing to do with everyone else, and I feel like we're painting each other to be catty, awful bitches. I'm not a bitch, yes I can be blunt and painfully honest sometimes, but I'm not a bitch. I don't honestly know you well enough to judge, so I'll leave that to you.
ReplyDeleteand I meant people other than you that agreed with your opinion.
but like I said, this is all about the way I see MYSELF. Not how I see anyone else. It's about the point where I feel good about my body, not where you feel good about yours.
Sorry if I pissed you off.